All of it - the incessant work, that inky mood, those destabilizing thoughts - had done nothing but drain me: spiritualy, emotionally, intellectually, and physically. Drained is certainly the operative word, and it was a surprising sensation because, like most young adults, i assumed that energy and vitality were boundless and inexhaustible. I'm embarrassed to admit that I was unconciously convinced that one could live at this furious pace forever and do it without any serious consequences.